Things have crumpled. Today, Chris received word that Sunquest does not want him. Yesterday, we did not get to complete the ceremony we’d intended on. Our choices are running thin. Time is short. Things are frustrating.

Chris is either overqualified or underqualified for everything that he goes for. He can’t get a real job. We can’t get a place because of it. My lease is up in June/July. He has to have one by then. I can’t handle not knowing where I’m going to live. I can’t deal with the concept that things might not work out. I have to hold onto hope.

The fact that we didn’t get to do our ceremony fills me with sorrow. I feel like another one of my dreams has been dashed upon the rocks. I almost want to reschedule it for the full moon. I feel like this needs to be done.

I’m not sure what to do.